played music with my sister tonight. soso good. i needed to do it. i just have to let something out. there’s just something inside me that i can’t keep swallowing. it’s just bursting and i think i’m finally okay with it. it just feels so heavy and the world and the air and i am all changing. it gets heavier and heavier and my eyes and my heart and my stomach feels it and i can see and i can feel and i can taste the heaviness. it’s sadness and freedom and let downs and sighs and it all affects change.
